1.17.2014

Flow

Teckler

The cold weather makes my bed appear so inviting, it’s tempting to lie down the whole day…

But I’d rather not.

Being in bed inevitably rouses thoughts I do not wish to think about; unpleasant thoughts; thoughts that are not necessarily true but powerfully deceiving; these thoughts know my weaknesses; they know me, every inch of my being. Being away from bed helps me run away from them. Yet it is as if they hide under the covers while I’m gone and take advantage when I’m there.

I’ve been craving for silence most of the time. My senses must have gotten too old much too soon that too much external stimuli tend to overwhelm me that easily. Silence is music to my ears. And if it’s possible, it’s all I long to hear.

The air has gotten colder these days. But my heart and my blood remain warm; if only the weather could freeze them and turn them to ice.

Teckler
Teckler

32 comments:

  1. I wish my feelings would freeze too... feeling them are all to painful... how I wish I could side step them but they are always there....

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  2. Staying in bed does not help to move on, to stop thinking.
    It's good to read you with more positive thoughts Irene. May 2014 give you a chance to live the warmth of a new day, every day.
    Take care my dear.

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  3. Sometimes I resent my character, unable to be cold and devoid of rationality, why must I be so full with emotions and stupidity? I feel worse when I realize how clumsy I am with feelings.

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  4. The cold weather has admittedly been making me a lot lazier than I would like, too. But it's good that you're preventing yourself from idling too much to avoid over-thinking. Over-thinking never really helps with anything other than making ourselves worry when we shouldn't even be worrying in the first place. Have a pleasant day Irene :)

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  5. I could relate to this post. Sometimes, I really need time fr myself, i.e. to be alone.

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  6. i get those moments too when i lie down and all these unpleasant thoughts creep in. hope it doesn't stay cold there for too long! sending warm thoughts~~

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  7. ah i know how this feels, i get depressed from time to time and when im on that "funk" i just stay on bed. it can be helpful sometimes but it can also put me in a state where i overthink life. hope you are feeling much better now :) btw irene im hosting a new giveaway, hope you can join :)

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  9. I'm more afraid of feeling nothing than feeling too much. It reminds me I'm alive, if nothing else.

    /Avy

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  10. its like i could bury myself there.
    so safe. protected.

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  11. always love your writing but sometimes you look sad & alone :(
    Cheer up dear ^^

    Chic Swank

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  12. Hi Irene, everytime I visit your blog I always feel like visiting a garden. I don't know haha. Btw I have a new post and it's about the Liebster Award, I nominated you! So if you feel like it this is the post: http://dancinginmyawkwardarms.blogspot.com/2014/02/liebster-award.html , make a post back if you like and answer with my questions ;)

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  13. Good luck to you and your endeavours.

    Thank you. Love love, Andrew. Bye.

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  14. I don't know if were on the same page but I too can't stand laying in bed. I feel so useless. Taking a walk by myself or running around a park with Matt makes me happy. I prefer to just be alone. It keeps me sane.

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  16. nice photos :) how I wish it's as cold as the months before. :3 Hello summer!~

    xoxo,
    rae
    http://raellarina.blogspot.com/

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  17. I love the first picture! There's just something about it, I guess.

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  19. But, sometimes the random thoughts help one make sense of a lot of things. Although it's true that when even i have a LOT of thoughts on my mind then I avoid laying down in bed until I'm very extremely sleepy so that I don't have to think much before going to sleep.

    Beautiful photographs, by the way :D

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  23. Hey Irene!
    I'm kind of back. → Link . I can relate to this post, since, I have been very unproductive lately. These conquering thoughts are giving me a hard time to focus on my studies, so, I can say, I also crave for silence, at least - a silent state of mind-

    Btw, Wonderful photos.
    Wishing you all the best!
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  25. Strangely,silence used to be a melody to my ears but now i scream,make noise and laugh more to divert my attention.Silence haunts me now.

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  26. I always feel like sleeping though. Love your blog!!

    -M
    http://thelyfoflittleme.blogspot.com.au/

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  30. Our blood is hot...will never get freeze.......But when you are alone definitely your blood will freez

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