11.20.2013

Nothingness


I lay in bed but could not sleep, my mind like one huge bag of air.

Thoughts, albeit overflowing, are in a whirl, wandering like a hermit lost in the desert. For a moment, I would gain the strength to silence them; but after a while they resurface, meaningless as ever, like a stranger insisting that I get to know her better. I must have been that out of sync with myself. I often am.

I hear multiple muffled sounds coming from outside: random people conversing on the street, women nearby laughing with abandon, the neighbor’s dog’s frenzied yapping, a small vehicle swiftly passing by; the noise making me realize that I was still in touch with reality. But there was something more than just the four walls enclosing this room like a box that kept that distance between me and the rest of the world; the barriers that only an aloof mind can build.

The crickets began to sing in the dark; suddenly all that made sense was the restless beating of my heart.


Originally posted at http://www.teckler.com/en/Irenewrites/Nothingness-179091

28 comments:

  1. Dear Irene, listen to the poems in your heart and silence will envelope you. Be at peace, my sweet friend, don't tax yourself.
    -Portia

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  2. Sometimes, our thoughts may seem meaningless and confused, but they can be our mind's way of purging itself of the negative, just as physical exercise relieves the body of stress. Sending much love your way, Irene!

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  3. Always beautiful and always honest... I love your posts Irene ;-)

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  4. I often slip into a pattern of incoherent thoughts, but why is that every dreams wake with sorrows these days... I find it hard to grasp on an idea nowadays...

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  5. i know what you're talking about. i often have that kind of night. the thoughts usually win. so i get up and start to write them out. beautiful writing, Irene

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  6. great post.beautifil photos
    wanna follow each other via gfc and bloglovin
    kisses

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  7. By listening to the world around, we sometime can find the way back to our own existence. Keep listening to your heartbeat Irene, he is the one that makes life flow out of you with such passion.
    May God bless you dear. xx

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  8. How beautiful. As I read these lines, a hush came down on me. For a moment, it felt as if I could hear my own heart beating.

    Irene, you can write as if you were singing a lullaby.

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  9. this sounds like me every single day...or should I say night... I can't tell the difference anymore...I can't seem to quiet my mind during day nor night...and when I finally go to bed...when my body aches and craves for a few hours of sleep... the mind rebels... there is always such a revolution inside me.. I can't ever sleep... it feels like something's going to blow up....
    I once read, inspiration never sleeps... well... yes I get inspired most of the time and start writing and drawing and painting until I get it all out and finally doze off.... is that how it works? ...must we empty ourselves in order to rest? to gain some peace until the bucket fills up again?

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  10. Oh, how I whish to fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow... but the problem is that I always have a million thoughts in my head

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  11. Nice post dear. I love how you write<3
    Wanna follow each other via gfc and bloglovin? (:

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  12. Love the pictures <3
    I'm now following you via gfc and bloglovin !
    Hope you will follow me to... ;)

    Big kiss from Croatia,

    Matea

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  13. Your writing is always so beautiful and vivid. I love the first and last lines. :)

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  14. I can relate to this, I think we all can. Let go. Tomorrow will be a better day :)

    Happy Blogging Irene!

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  15. Absolutely beautiful! Your writing is always so refreshing :)

    Hayfa
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  16. lovely writing. :) hope you are having an amazing weekend.

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  17. What a great text and accompanying photos!

    Have a great weekend,
    -Kati

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  18. Hey beauty :) would we follow each other on gfc and bloglovin? Maybe also on Instagram and twitter (widget on my blog), what do you mean? Regards from germany ?
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  19. you are a beautiful writer. this is interesting- kind of mysterious. are all of your writings true to your feelings at the time, like a diary, or are they just writing? i also like the one below you've written "trails of a nightmare". beautiful, but so sad. do you take these photos, too?

    well done. a pleasure to read.

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  20. Lovely writing ... Your posts are always a pleasure to read :-)

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  21. Thats a slice cut beautifully n penned down

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  22. That text is just full of reflexion when it comes to my interpretation..awesome.

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